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One week in

So one week on Fematab… We have out first scan on Monday to see if we will be far off the transfer date. Usually the lining is never quite thick enough on the first scan and i have a 2nd one. i dont know what is ideal to be honest… I have been online and read so many different opionions of what different clinics do – some say 7mm and some 8mm…. mine i think are usually always in between the 7-8 mm when we do the transfer…

When you read different things you always think “i wonder is that why it didnt work for me?” its so easy to over analyse everything…. I also feel like i am constantly wishing my life away…. I just want to be ready for the FET, then once thats done i wish the 2 weeks away… When the results were negative the last time i couldnt wait to start again.. its definitely not a process someone can enjoy lol… Once i am pregnant maybe then i will be able to relax and not wish time away…. Most likely i will want the 9 months to pass so i can meet my baby so that wont happen either 🙂

Anyway its Friday and i have a weekend of doing nothing which i am very much looking forward too… I am going to relax, get my nails done and chill out… I have the house to myself tomorrow night which i cant wait for – a good movie and some treats i think sounds ideal… I also need to really try and get the hang of this blogging thing… Some research i think will be in hand…. I want to commit to writing at least a blog a week until i get used to it and see where i go from there….

Apart from wroting the blog i do love reading others from women who are in the same position as me with IVF, its comforting to know i am not alone… And then when i read the succes stories it really does give me hope that it will work out for me too……

I am starving so going to go and have some lunch but hope its a great weekend for everyone and sending loads of love to everyone who are on their own IVF trek… xx

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3rd round

So it’s time… round 3 for my FET… My cycle has just started and I’m not sure how long it’s going to be, we usually do transfer on day 19 but after the results of ERA I guess it will be around day 20… started on Fematab today.. Dirst scan on March 2nd to see how the lining is looking and when to start progesterone….

I hate waiting… I’m so impatient in general with everything else and this really does test my patience… at least I have a lot on for the next few weeks, including my birthday and a weekend away with the girls and work is crazy busy so hopefully it all keeps me distracted and the time flies…

Only 18 days to go!!!!! (Maybe)

Anyway a lot more drugs this time, extra progesterone. So as well as the gel I usually take I now have to inject it along with a buserlin injection the day after transfer… hopefully it works this time…

I always think “sure why wouldn’t it work?” Always hopeful but try not to get too excited either…. oh I dunno… sure there is nothing I can do anyway… just hope and pray that it works this time…

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PMS

Storm Dennis has arrived and it’s miserable out and to be honest my mood isn’t much better… I have noticed really in the last few years that I suffer quite bad with PMS…

The week leading up to my period there is always one, maybe 2 days where I feel, well, sad… I know logically it’s pms and I tell myself this but it doesn’t really help shift the mood… I also tend to feel a bit insecure about certain things… today it was my relationship… I know how much I am loved and leigh does everything to treat me like a queen but it’s just these couple of days I have doubt and feel anxious about our life together…

Sense of impending doom… that’s how me and my bestie always describe the feeling…. She is the only person that I know I can pick up the phone be absolutely crazy, say crazy shit, cry if I needed or just be like meh and she gets it… Everyone needs someone in their life with that, she is my person…

On the bright side, PMS means my period is due soon which means I get to start my next cycle and do our next transfer… not looking forward to the injections I have to take this time, usually it’s just fematab and progesterone gel but they have got my on progesterone injections too… here’s to being batshit crazy for the next 2 weeks(well I don’t think I am that bad, leigh thinks other wise hahah)

FET

FET

Another day another dollar… We are planning our next FET (frozen embryo transfer). Once my next cycle starts all the drugs start again… we have been through 2 already and they didn’t take which I was convinced both of them would… I don’t know if I was being really positive or really naive…

We had a ERA prior to this transfer which is basically a biopsy to see when the best day to do the transfer is… for most women it’s day 5 after starting your progesterone, which is the day we did the first 2 transfers… the results of the ERA actually came back and said the best day for me was day 6, so while it was an extra cost and it was quite expensive, I’m glad we opted for it as I could have kept going along with transfers on day 5 and been none the wiser…

So 2 more weeks or so and the journey starts again…

Who and Why?

Who and Why?

So who an I and why did I decide to start a blog? Well my name is Andie, I’m 34 and overall have a pretty happy life… the why, the one thing missing is a baby.Myself and partner are together 4 years and decided we wanted a family… the problem, I had my appendix out when I was in my late teens and there was a lot of scarring on my tubes, this led to me getting hydrosalpinx which in turn led me to having to have both Fallopian tubes removed. So our only way to conceive a child is through IVF and well, it’s tough… everything about it is tough so this is my outlet, pain joy, ups and downs, I’ll get it all out and maybe along the way I’ll help others…